第12章

Hiswalkwasrapidashecamedown,andhewentwithaspringytrend。Beforeenteringuponhismother’spremiseshestoppedandbreathed。Thelightwhichshoneforthonhimfromthewindowrevealedthathisfacewasflushedandhiseyebright。Whatitdidnotshowwassomethingwhichlingereduponhislipslikeasealsetthere。

Theabidingpresenceofthisimpresswassorealthathehardlydaredtoenterthehouse,foritseemedasifhismothermightsay,"Whatredspotisthatglowinguponyourmouthsovividly?"

Butheenteredsoonafter。Theteawasready,andhesatdownoppositehismother。Shedidnotspeakmanywords;

andasforhim,somethinghadbeenjustdoneandsomewordshadbeenjustsaidonthehillwhichpreventedhimfrombeginningadesultorychat。Hismother’staciturnitywasnotwithoutominousness,butheappearednottocare。

Heknewwhyshesaidsolittle,buthecouldnotremovethecauseofherbearingtowardshim。Thesehalf—silentsittingswerefarfromuncommonwiththemnow。AtlastYeobrightmadeabeginningofwhatwasintendedtostrikeatthewholerootofthematter。

"Fivedayshavewesatlikethisatmealswithscarcelyaword。What’stheuseofit,Mother?"

"None,"saidshe,inaheart—swollentone。"Butthereisonlytoogoodareason。"

"Notwhenyouknowall。Ihavebeenwantingtospeakaboutthis,andIamgladthesubjectisbegun。Thereason,ofcourse,isEustaciaVye。Well,IconfessIhaveseenherlately,andhaveseenheragoodmanytimes。"

"Yes,yes;andIknowwhatthatamountsto。Ittroublesme,Clym。Youarewastingyourlifehere;anditissolelyonaccountofher。Ifithadnotbeenforthatwomanyouwouldneverhaveentertainedthisteachingschemeatall。"

Clymlookedhardathismother。"Youknowthatisnotit,"

hesaid。

"Well,Iknowyouhaddecidedtoattemptitbeforeyousawher;butthatwouldhaveendedinintentions。Itwasverywelltotalkof,butridiculoustoputinpractice。

Ifullyexpectedthatinthecourseofamonthortwoyouwouldhaveseenthefollyofsuchself—sacrifice,andwouldhavebeenbythistimebackagaintoParisinsomebusinessorother。Icanunderstandobjectionstothediamondtrade——Ireallywasthinkingthatitmightbeinadequatetothelifeofamanlikeyoueventhoughitmighthavemadeyouamillionaire。

ButnowIseehowmistakenyouareaboutthisgirlIdoubtifyoucouldbecorrectaboutotherthings。"

"HowamImistakeninher?"

"Sheislazyanddissatisfied。Butthatisnotallofit。

Supposinghertobeasgoodawomanasanyyoucanfind,whichshecertainlyisnot,whydoyouwishtoconnectyourselfwithanybodyatpresent?"

"Well,therearepracticalreasons,"Clymbegan,andthenalmostbrokeoffunderanoverpoweringsenseoftheweightofargumentwhichcouldbebroughtagainsthisstatement。

"IfItakeaschoolaneducatedwomanwouldbeinvaluableasahelptome。"

"What!youreallymeantomarryher?"

"Itwouldbeprematuretostatethatplainly。Butconsiderwhatobviousadvantagestherewouldbeindoingit。She————"

"Don’tsupposeshehasanymoney。Shehasn’tafarthing。"

"Sheisexcellentlyeducated,andwouldmakeagoodmatroninaboarding—school。IcandidlyownthatI

havemodifiedmyviewsalittle,indeferencetoyou;

anditshouldsatisfyyou。Inolongeradheretomyintentionofgivingwithmyownmouthrudimentaryeducationtothelowestclass。Icandobetter。Icanestablishagoodprivateschoolforfarmers’sons,andwithoutstoppingtheschoolIcanmanagetopassexaminations。

Bythismeans,andbytheassistanceofawifelikeher————"

"Oh,Clym!"

"Ishallultimately,Ihope,beattheheadofoneofthebestschoolsinthecounty。"

Yeobrighthadenunciatedtheword"her"withafervourwhich,inconversationwithamother,wasabsurdlyindiscreet。

Hardlyamaternalheartwithinthefourseascouldinsuchcircumstances,havehelpedbeingirritatedatthatill—timedbetrayaloffeelingforanewwoman。

"Youareblinded,Clym,"shesaidwarmly。"Itwasabaddayforyouwhenyoufirstseteyesonher。

Andyourschemeismerelyacastleintheairbuiltonpurposetojustifythisfollywhichhasseizedyou,andtosalveyourconscienceontheirrationalsituationyouarein。"

"Mother,that’snottrue,"hefirmlyanswered。

"CanyoumaintainthatIsitandtelluntruths,whenallIwishtodoistosaveyoufromsorrow?Forshame,Clym!Butitisallthroughthatwoman——ahussy!"

Clymreddenedlikefireandrose。Heplacedhishanduponhismother’sshoulderandsaid,inatonewhichhungstrangelybetweenentreatyandcommand,"Iwon’thearit。

Imaybeledtoansweryouinawaywhichweshallbothregret。"

Hismotherpartedherlipstobeginsomeothervehementtruth,butonlookingathimshesawthatinhisfacewhichledhertoleavethewordsunsaid。Yeobrightwalkedonceortwiceacrosstheroom,andthensuddenlywentoutofthehouse。

Itwaseleveno’clockwhenhecamein,thoughhehadnotbeenfurtherthantheprecinctsofthegarden。

Hismotherwasgonetobed。Alightwasleftburningonthetable,andsupperwasspread。Withoutstoppingforanyfoodhesecuredthedoorsandwentupstairs。

4—AnHourofBlissandManyHoursofSadnessThenextdaywasgloomyenoughatBlooms—End。Yeobrightremainedinhisstudy,sittingovertheopenbooks;

buttheworkofthosehourswasmiserablyscant。

Determinedthatthereshouldbenothinginhisconducttowardshismotherresemblingsullenness,hehadoccasionallyspokentoheronpassingmatters,andwouldtakenonoticeofthebrevityofherreplies。Withthesameresolvetokeepupashowofconversationhesaid,aboutseveno’clockintheevening,"There’saneclipseofthemoontonight。

Iamgoingouttoseeit。"And,puttingonhisovercoat,helefther。

Thelowmoonwasnotasyetvisiblefromthefrontofthehouse,andYeobrightclimbedoutofthevalleyuntilhestoodinthefullfloodofherlight。Butevennowhewalkedon,andhisstepswereinthedirectionofRainbarrow。

Inhalfanhourhestoodatthetop。Theskywasclearfromvergetoverge,andthemoonflungherraysoverthewholeheath,butwithoutsensiblylightingit,exceptwherepathsandwater—courseshadlaidbarethewhiteflintsandglisteningquartzsand,whichmadestreaksuponthegeneralshade。

Afterstandingawhilehestoopedandfelttheheather。

Itwasdry,andheflunghimselfdownuponthebarrow,hisfacetowardsthemoon,whichdepictedasmallimageofherselfineachofhiseyes。

Hehadoftencomeupherewithoutstatinghispurposetohismother;butthiswasthefirsttimethathehadbeenostensiblyfrankastohispurposewhilereallyconcealingit。

Itwasamoralsituationwhich,threemonthsearlier,hecouldhardlyhavecreditedofhimself。Inreturningtolabourinthissequesteredspothehadanticipatedanescapefromthechafingofsocialnecessities;

yetbeholdtheywereherealso。Morethaneverhelongedtobeinsomeworldwherepersonalambitionwasnottheonlyrecognizedformofprogress——such,perhaps,asmighthavebeenthecaseatsometimeorotherinthesilveryglobethenshininguponhim。Hiseyetravelledoverthelengthandbreadthofthatdistantcountry——overtheBayofRainbows,thesombreSeaofCrises,theOceanofStorms,theLakeofDreams,thevastWalledPlains,andthewondrousRingMountains——tillhealmostfelthimselftobevoyagingbodilythroughitswildscenes,standingonitshollowhills,traversingitsdeserts,descendingitsvalesandoldseabottoms,ormountingtotheedgesofitscraters。

Whilehewatchedthefar—removedlandscapeatawnystaingrewintobeingonthelowerverge——theeclipsehadbegun。

Thismarkedapreconcertedmoment——fortheremotecelestialphenomenonhadbeenpressedintosublunaryserviceasalover’ssignal。Yeobright’smindflewbacktoearthatthesight;hearose,shookhimselfandlistened。

Minuteafterminutepassedby,perhapstenminutespassed,andtheshadowonthemoonperceptiblywidened。

Heheardarustlingonhislefthand,acloakedfigurewithanupturnedfaceappearedatthebaseoftheBarrow,andClymdescended。Inamomentthefigurewasinhisarms,andhislipsuponhers。

"MyEustacia!"

"Clym,dearest!"

Suchasituationhadlessthanthreemonthsbroughtforth。

Theyremainedlongwithoutasingleutterance,fornolanguagecouldreachtheleveloftheircondition——wordswereastherustyimplementsofaby—gonebarbarousepoch,andonlytobeoccasionallytolerated。

"Ibegantowonderwhyyoudidnotcome,"saidYeobright,whenshehadwithdrawnalittlefromhisembrace。

"Yousaidtenminutesafterthefirstmarkofshadeontheedgeofthemoon,andthat’swhatitisnow。"

"Well,letusonlythinkthathereweare。"

Then,holdingeachother’shand,theywereagainsilent,andtheshadowonthemoon’sdiscgrewalittlelarger。

"Hasitseemedlongsinceyoulastsawme?"sheasked。

"Ithasseemedsad。"

"Andnotlong?That’sbecauseyouoccupyyourself,andsoblindyourselftomyabsence。Tome,whocandonothing,ithasbeenlikelivingunderstagnantwater。"

"Iwouldratherbeartediousness,dear,thanhavetimemadeshortbysuchmeansashaveshortenedmine。"

"Inwhatwayisthat?Youhavebeenthinkingyouwishedyoudidnotloveme。"

"Howcanamanwishthat,andyetloveon?No,Eustacia。"

"Mencan,womencannot。"

"Well,whateverImayhavethought,onethingiscertain——I

doloveyou——pastallcompassanddescription。Iloveyoutooppressiveness——I,whohaveneverbeforefeltmorethanapleasantpassingfancyforanywomanIhaveeverseen。

Letmelookrightintoyourmoonlitfaceanddwelloneverylineandcurveinit!OnlyafewhairbreadthsmakethedifferencebetweenthisfaceandfacesIhaveseenmanytimesbeforeIknewyou;yetwhatadifference——thedifferencebetweeneverythingandnothingatall。

Onetouchonthatmouthagain!there,andthere,andthere。

Youreyesseemheavy,Eustacia。"

"No,itismygeneralwayoflooking。IthinkitarisesfrommyfeelingsometimesanagonizingpityformyselfthatIeverwasborn。"

"Youdon’tfeelitnow?"

"No。YetIknowthatweshallnotlovelikethisalways。

Nothingcanensurethecontinuanceoflove。Itwillevaporatelikeaspirit,andsoIfeelfulloffears。"

"Youneednot。"

"Ah,youdon’tknow。YouhaveseenmorethanI,andhavebeenintocitiesandamongpeoplethatIhaveonlyheardof,andhavelivedmoreyearsthanI;butyetIamolderatthisthanyou。Ilovedanothermanonce,andnowIloveyou。"

"InGod’smercydon’ttalkso,Eustacia!"

"ButIdonotthinkIshallbetheonewhoweariesfirst。

Itwill,Ifear,endinthisway:yourmotherwillfindoutthatyoumeetme,andshewillinfluenceyouagainstme!"

"Thatcanneverbe。Sheknowsofthesemeetingsalready。"

"Andshespeaksagainstme?"

"Iwillnotsay。"

"There,goaway!Obeyher。Ishallruinyou。Itisfoolishofyoutomeetmelikethis。Kissme,andgoawayforever。

Forever——doyouhear?——forever!"

"NotI。"

"Itisyouronlychance。Manyaman’slovehasbeenacursetohim。"

"Youaredesperate,fulloffancies,andwilful;

andyoumisunderstand。Ihaveanadditionalreasonforseeingyoutonightbesidesloveofyou。Forthough,unlikeyou,Ifeelouraffectionmaybeeternal。

Ifeelwithyouinthis,thatourpresentmodeofexistencecannotlast。"

"Oh!’tisyourmother。Yes,that’sit!Iknewit。"

"Nevermindwhatitis。Believethis,Icannotletmyselfloseyou。Imusthaveyoualwayswithme。

ThisveryeveningIdonotliketoletyougo。

Thereisonlyonecureforthisanxiety,dearest——youmustbemywife。"

Shestarted——thenendeavouredtosaycalmly,"Cynicssaythatcurestheanxietybycuringthelove。"

"Butyoumustanswerme。ShallIclaimyousomeday——I

don’tmeanatonce?"

"Imustthink,"Eustaciamurmured。"AtpresentspeakofParistome。Isthereanyplacelikeitonearth?"

"Itisverybeautiful。Butwillyoubemine?"

"Iwillbenobodyelse’sintheworld——doesthatsatisfyyou?"

"Yes,forthepresent。"

"NowtellmeoftheTuileries,andtheLouvre,"

shecontinuedevasively。

"IhatetalkingofParis!Well,IrememberonesunnyroomintheLouvrewhichwouldmakeafittingplaceforyoutolivein——theGaleried’Apollon。Itswindowsaremainlyeast;

andintheearlymorning,whenthesunisbright,thewholeapartmentisinaperfectblazeofsplendour。

Theraysbristleanddartfromtheencrustationsofgildingtothemagnificentinlaidcoffers,fromthecofferstothegoldandsilverplate,fromtheplatetothejewelsandpreciousstones,fromthesetotheenamels,tillthereisaperfectnetworkoflightwhichquitedazzlestheeye。

Butnow,aboutourmarriage————"

"AndVersailles——theKing’sGalleryissomesuchgorgeousroom,isitnot?"

"Yes。Butwhat’stheuseoftalkingofgorgeousrooms?

Bytheway,theLittleTrianonwouldsuitusbeautifullytolivein,andyoumightwalkinthegardensinthemoonlightandthinkyouwereinsomeEnglishshrubbery;

ItislaidoutinEnglishfashion。"

"Ishouldhatetothinkthat!"

"ThenyoucouldkeeptothelawninfrontoftheGrandPalace。

Allaboutthereyouwoulddoubtlessfeelinaworldofhistoricalromance。"

Hewenton,sinceitwasallnewtoher,anddescribedFontainebleau,St。Cloud,theBois,andmanyotherfamiliarhauntsoftheParisians;tillshesaid——

"Whenusedyoutogototheseplaces?"

"OnSundays。"

"Ah,yes。IdislikeEnglishSundays。HowIshouldchimeinwiththeirmannersoverthere!DearClym,you’llgobackagain?"

Clymshookhishead,andlookedattheeclipse。

"Ifyou’llgobackagainI’ll——besomething,"

shesaidtenderly,puttingherheadnearhisbreast。

"Ifyou’llagreeI’llgivemypromise,withoutmakingyouwaitaminutelonger。"

"Howextraordinarythatyouandmymothershouldbeofonemindaboutthis!"saidYeobright。"Ihavevowednottogoback,Eustacia。ItisnottheplaceIdislike;

itistheoccupation。"

"Butyoucangoinsomeothercapacity。"

"No。Besides,itwouldinterferewithmyscheme。

Don’tpressthat,Eustacia。Willyoumarryme?"

"Icannottell。"

"Now——nevermindParis;itisnobetterthanotherspots。

Promise,sweet!"

"Youwillneveradheretoyoureducationplan,Iamquitesure;andthenitwillbeallrightforme;

andsoIpromisetobeyoursforeverandever。"

Clymbroughtherfacetowardshisbyagentlepressureofthehand,andkissedher。

"Ah!butyoudon’tknowwhatyouhavegotinme,"shesaid。

"SometimesIthinkthereisnotthatinEustaciaVyewhichwillmakeagoodhomespunwife。Well,letitgo——seehowourtimeisslipping,slipping,slipping!"Shepointedtowardsthehalf—eclipsedmoon。

"Youaretoomournful。"

"No。OnlyIdreadtothinkofanythingbeyondthepresent。

Whatis,weknow。Wearetogethernow,anditisunknownhowlongweshallbeso;theunknownalwaysfillsmymindwithterriblepossibilities,evenwhenImayreasonablyexpectittobecheerful……Clym,theeclipsedmoonlightshinesuponyourfacewithastrangeforeigncolour,andshowsitsshapeasifitwerecutoutingold。

Thatmeansthatyoushouldbedoingbetterthingsthanthis。"

"Youareambitious,Eustacia——no,notexactlyambitious,luxurious。Ioughttobeofthesamevein,tomakeyouhappy,Isuppose。Andyet,farfromthat,Icouldliveanddieinahermitagehere,withproperworktodo。"

Therewasthatinhistonewhichimplieddistrustofhispositionasasolicitouslover,adoubtifhewereactingfairlytowardsonewhosetastestouchedhisownonlyatrareandinfrequentpoints。Shesawhismeaning,andwhispered,inalow,fullaccentofeagerassurance"Don’tmistakeme,Clym——thoughIshouldlikeParis,Iloveyouforyourselfalone。TobeyourwifeandliveinPariswouldbeheaventome;butIwouldratherlivewithyouinahermitageherethannotbeyoursatall。

Itisgaintomeeitherway,andverygreatgain。

There’smytoocandidconfession。"

"Spokenlikeawoman。AndnowImustsoonleaveyou。

I’llwalkwithyoutowardsyourhouse。"

"Butmustyougohomeyet?"sheasked。"Yes,thesandhasnearlyslippedaway,Isee,andtheeclipseiscreepingonmoreandmore。Don’tgoyet!Stoptillthehourhasrunitselfout;thenIwillnotpressyouanymore。

Youwillgohomeandsleepwell;Ikeepsighinginmysleep!Doyoueverdreamofme?"

"Icannotrecollectacleardreamofyou。"

"Iseeyourfaceineverysceneofmydreams,andhearyourvoiceineverysound。IwishIdidnot。ItistoomuchwhatIfeel。Theysaysuchloveneverlasts。

Butitmust!Andyetonce,Iremember,IsawanofficeroftheHussarsridedownthestreetatBudmouth,andthoughhewasatotalstrangerandneverspoketome,IlovedhimtillIthoughtIshouldreallydieoflove——

butIdidn’tdie,andatlastIleftoffcaringforhim。

HowterribleitwouldbeifatimeshouldcomewhenIcouldnotloveyou,myClym!"

"Pleasedon’tsaysuchrecklessthings。Whenweseesuchatimeathandwewillsay,’Ihaveoutlivedmyfaithandpurpose,’anddie。There,thehourhasexpired——nowletuswalkon。"

HandinhandtheywentalongthepathtowardsMistover。

Whentheywerenearthehousehesaid,"Itistoolateformetoseeyourgrandfathertonight。Doyouthinkhewillobjecttoit?"

"Iwillspeaktohim。Iamsoaccustomedtobemyownmistressthatitdidnotoccurtomethatweshouldhavetoaskhim。"

Thentheylingeringlyseparated,andClymdescendedtowardsBlooms—End。

AndashewalkedfurtherandfurtherfromthecharmedatmosphereofhisOlympiangirlhisfacegrewsadwithanewsortofsadness。Aperceptionofthedilemmainwhichhislovehadplacedhimcamebackinfullforce。

InspiteofEustacia’sapparentwillingnesstowaitthroughtheperiodofanunpromisingengagement,tillheshouldbeestablishedinhisnewpursuit,hecouldnotbutperceiveatmomentsthatshelovedhimratherasavisitantfromagayworldtowhichsherightlybelongedthanasamanwithapurposeopposedtothatrecentpastofhiswhichsointerestedher。Itmeantthat,thoughshemadenoconditionsastohisreturntotheFrenchcapital,thiswaswhatshesecretlylongedforintheeventofmarriage;

anditrobbedhimofmanyanotherwisepleasanthour。

Alongwiththatcamethewideningbreachbetweenhimselfandhismother。Wheneveranylittleoccurrencehadbroughtintomoreprominencethanusualthedisappointmentthathewascausingherithadsenthimonloneandmoodywalks;

orhewaskeptawakeagreatpartofthenightbytheturmoilofspiritwhichsucharecognitioncreated。

IfMrs。YeobrightcouldonlyhavebeenledtoseewhatasoundandworthypurposethispurposeofhiswasandhowlittleitwasbeingaffectedbyhisdevotionstoEustacia,howdifferentlywouldsheregardhim!

Thusashissightgrewaccustomedtothefirstblindinghalokindledabouthimbyloveandbeauty,Yeobrightbegantoperceivewhatastraithewasin。

SometimeshewishedthathehadneverknownEustacia,immediatelytoretractthewishasbrutal。Threeantagonisticgrowthshadtobekeptalive:hismother’strustinhim,hisplanforbecomingateacher,andEustacia’shappiness。

Hisfervidnaturecouldnotaffordtorelinquishoneofthese,thoughtwoofthethreewereasmanyashecouldhopetopreserve。ThoughhislovewasaschasteasthatofPetrarchforhisLaura,ithadmadefettersofwhatpreviouslywasonlyadifficulty。Apositionwhichwasnottoosimplewhenhestoodwhole—heartedhadbecomeindescribablycomplicatedbytheadditionofEustacia。

Justwhenhismotherwasbeginningtotolerateoneschemehehadintroducedanotherstillbittererthanthefirst,andthecombinationwasmorethanshecouldbear。

5—SharpWordsAreSpoken,andaCrisisEnsuesWhenYeobrightwasnotwithEustaciahewassittingslavishlyoverhisbooks;whenhewasnotreadinghewasmeetingher。

Thesemeetingswerecarriedonwiththegreatestsecrecy。

OneafternoonhismothercamehomefromamorningvisittoThomasin。Hecouldseefromadisturbanceinthelinesofherfacethatsomethinghadhappened。

"Ihavebeentoldanincomprehensiblething,"

shesaidmournfully。"ThecaptainhasletoutattheWomanthatyouandEustaciaVyeareengagedtobemarried。"

"Weare,"saidYeobright。"Butitmaynotbeyetforaverylongtime。"

"IshouldhardlythinkitWOULDbeyetforaverylongtime!YouwilltakehertoParis,Isuppose?"

Shespokewithwearyhopelessness。

"IamnotgoingbacktoParis。"

"Whatwillyoudowithawife,then?"

"KeepaschoolinBudmouth,asIhavetoldyou。"

"That’sincredible!Theplaceisoverrunwithschoolmasters。

Youhavenospecialqualifications。Whatpossiblechanceisthereforsuchasyou?"

"Thereisnochanceofgettingrich。Butwithmysystemofeducation,whichisasnewasitistrue,Ishalldoagreatdealofgoodtomyfellow—creatures。"

"Dreams,dreams!Iftherehadbeenanysystemlefttobeinventedtheywouldhavefounditoutattheuniversitieslongbeforethistime。"

"Never,Mother。Theycannotfinditout,becausetheirteachersdon’tcomeincontactwiththeclasswhichdemandssuchasystem——thatis,thosewhohavehadnopreliminarytraining。Myplanisoneforinstillinghighknowledgeintoemptymindswithoutfirstcrammingthemwithwhathastobeuncrammedagainbeforetruestudybegins。"

"Imighthavebelievedyouifyouhadkeptyourselffreefromentanglements;butthiswoman——ifshehadbeenagoodgirlitwouldhavebeenbadenough;butbeing————"

"Sheisagoodgirl。"

"Soyouthink。ACorfubandmaster’sdaughter!Whathasherlifebeen?Hersurnameevenisnothertrueone。"

"SheisCaptainVye’sgranddaughter,andherfathermerelytookhermother’sname。Andsheisaladybyinstinct。"

"Theycallhim’captain,’butanybodyiscaptain。"

"HewasintheRoyalNavy!"

"Nodoubthehasbeentoseainsometuborother。

Whydoesn’thelookafterher?Noladywouldroveabouttheheathatallhoursofthedayandnightasshedoes。

Butthat’snotallofit。TherewassomethingqueerbetweenherandThomasin’shusbandatonetime——IamassureofitasthatIstandhere。"

"Eustaciahastoldme。Hedidpayheralittleattentionayearago;butthere’snoharminthat。

Ilikeherallthebetter。"

"Clym,"saidhismotherwithfirmness,"Ihavenoproofsagainsther,unfortunately。Butifshemakesyouagoodwife,therehasneverbeenabadone。"

"Believeme,youarealmostexasperating,"

saidYeobrightvehemently。"AndthisverydayIhadintendedtoarrangeameetingbetweenyou。Butyougivemenopeace;youtrytothwartmywishesineverything。"

"Ihatethethoughtofanysonofminemarryingbadly!I

wishIhadneverlivedtoseethis;itistoomuchforme——itismorethanIdreamt!"Sheturnedtothewindow。

Herbreathwascomingquickly,andherlipswerepale,parted,andtrembling。

"Mother,"saidClym,"whateveryoudo,youwillalwaysbedeartome——thatyouknow。ButonethingIhavearighttosay,whichis,thatatmyageIamoldenoughtoknowwhatisbestforme。"

Mrs。Yeobrightremainedforsometimesilentandshaken,asifshecouldsaynomore。Thenshereplied,"Best?Isitbestforyoutoinjureyourprospectsforsuchavoluptuous,idlewomanasthat?Don’tyouseethatbytheveryfactofyourchoosingheryouprovethatyoudonotknowwhatisbestforyou?Yougiveupyourwholethought——yousetyourwholesoul——topleaseawoman。"

"Ido。Andthatwomanisyou。"

"Howcanyoutreatmesoflippantly!"saidhismother,turningagaintohimwithatearfullook。