第8章

"Butyoumustnotsacrificeyourselftoherfromanysenseofjustice,"repliedEustaciaquickly。

"Ifyoudonotloveheritisthemostmercifulthinginthelongruntoleaveherassheis。That’salwaysthebestway。There,nowIhavebeenunwomanly,Isuppose。

WhenyouhaveleftmeIamalwaysangrywithmyselfforthingsthatIhavesaidtoyou。"

Wildevewalkedapaceortwoamongtheheatherwithoutreplying。

Thepausewasfilledupbytheintonationofapollardthornalittlewaytowindward,thebreezesfilteringthroughitsunyieldingtwigsasthroughastrainer。

Itwasasifthenightsangdirgeswithclenchedteeth。

Shecontinued,halfsorrowfully,"Sincemeetingyoulast,ithasoccurredtomeonceortwicethatperhapsitwasnotforloveofmeyoudidnotmarryher。Tellme,Damon——I’lltrytobearit。HadInothingwhatevertodowiththematter?"

"Doyoupressmetotell?"

"Yes,Imustknow。IseeIhavebeentooreadytobelieveinmyownpower。"

"Well,theimmediatereasonwasthatthelicensewouldnotdofortheplace,andbeforeIcouldgetanothersheranaway。Uptothatpointyouhadnothingtodowithit。

SincethenheraunthasspokentomeinatonewhichI

don’tatalllike。"

"Yes,yes!Iamnothinginit——Iamnothinginit。

Youonlytriflewithme。Heaven,whatcanI,EustaciaVye,bemadeoftothinksomuchofyou!"

"Nonsense;donotbesopassionate……Eustacia,howwerovedamongthesebusheslastyear,whenthehotdayshadgotcool,andtheshadesofthehillskeptusalmostinvisibleinthehollows!"

Sheremainedinmoodysilencetillshesaid,"Yes;andhowIusedtolaughatyoufordaringtolookuptome!

Butyouhavewellmademesufferforthatsince。"

"Yes,youservedmecruellyenoughuntilIthoughtIhadfoundsomeonefairerthanyou。Ablessedfindforme,Eustacia。"

"Doyoustillthinkyoufoundsomebodyfairer?"

"SometimesIdo,sometimesIdon’t。Thescalesarebalancedsonicelythatafeatherwouldturnthem。"

"Butdon’tyoureallycarewhetherImeetyouorwhetherIdon’t?"shesaidslowly。

"Icarealittle,butnotenoughtobreakmyrest,"

repliedtheyoungmanlanguidly。"No,allthat’spast。

IfindtherearetwoflowerswhereIthoughttherewasonlyone。Perhapstherearethree,orfour,oranynumberasgoodasthefirst……Mineisacuriousfate。

Whowouldhavethoughtthatallthiscouldhappentome?"

Sheinterruptedwithasuppressedfireofwhicheitherloveorangerseemedanequallypossibleissue,"Doyoulovemenow?"

"Whocansay?"

"Tellme;Iwillknowit!"

"Ido,andIdonot,"saidhemischievously。"Thatis,Ihavemytimesandmyseasons。Onemomentyouaretootall,anothermomentyouaretoodo—nothing,anothertoomelancholy,anothertoodark,anotherIdon’tknowwhat,except——thatyouarenotthewholeworldtomethatyouusedtobe,mydear。

Butyouareapleasantladytoknowandnicetomeet,andIdaresayassweetasever——almost。"

Eustaciawassilent,andsheturnedfromhim,tillshesaid,inavoiceofsuspendedmightiness,"Iamforawalk,andthisismyway。"

"Well,Icandoworsethanfollowyou。"

"Youknowyoucan’tdootherwise,forallyourmoodsandchanges!"sheanswereddefiantly。"Saywhatyouwill;

tryasyoumay;keepawayfrommeallthatyoucan——youwillneverforgetme。Youwilllovemeallyourlifelong。

Youwouldjumptomarryme!"

"SoIwould!"saidWildeve。"SuchstrangethoughtsasI’vehadfromtimetotime,Eustacia;andtheycometomethismoment。Youhatetheheathasmuchasever;

thatIknow。"

"Ido,"shemurmureddeeply。"’Tismycross,myshame,andwillbemydeath!"

"Iabhorittoo,"saidhe。"Howmournfullythewindblowsroundusnow!"

Shedidnotanswer。Itstonewasindeedsolemnandpervasive。

Compoundutterancesaddressedthemselvestotheirsenses,anditwaspossibletoviewbyearthefeaturesoftheneighbourhood。

Acousticpictureswerereturnedfromthedarkenedscenery;

theycouldhearwherethetractsofheatherbeganandended;

wherethefurzewasgrowingstalkyandtall;whereithadbeenrecentlycut;inwhatdirectionthefir—clumplay,andhownearwasthepitinwhichtheholliesgrew;

forthesedifferingfeatureshadtheirvoicesnolessthantheirshapesandcolours。

"God,howlonelyitis!"resumedWildeve。"Whatarepicturesqueravinesandmiststouswhoseenothingelse?"

Whyshouldwestayhere?WillyougowithmetoAmerica?

IhavekindredinWisconsin。"

"Thatwantsconsideration。"

"Itseemsimpossibletodowellhere,unlessonewereawildbirdoralandscape—painter。Well?"

"Givemetime,"shesoftlysaid,takinghishand。

"Americaissofaraway。Areyougoingtowalkwithmealittleway?"

AsEustaciautteredthelatterwordssheretiredfromthebaseofthebarrow,andWildevefollowedher,sothatthereddlemancouldhearnomore。

Heliftedtheturvesandarose。Theirblackfiguressankanddisappearedfromagainstthesky。Theywereastwohornswhichthesluggishheathhadputforthfromitscrown,likeamollusc,andhadnowagaindrawnin。

Thereddleman’swalkacrossthevale,andoverintothenextwherehiscartlay,wasnotsprightlyforaslimyoungfellowoftwenty—four。Hisspiritwasperturbedtoaching。

Thebreezesthatblewaroundhismouthinthatwalkcarriedoffuponthemtheaccentsofacommination。

Heenteredthevan,wheretherewasafireinastove。

Withoutlightinghiscandlehesatdownatonceonthethree—leggedstool,andponderedonwhathehadseenandheardtouchingthatstill—lovedoneofhis。

Heutteredasoundwhichwasneithersighnorsob,butwasevenmoreindicativethaneitherofatroubledmind。

"MyTamsie,"hewhisperedheavily。"Whatcanbedone?Yes,IwillseethatEustaciaVye。"

10—ADesperateAttemptatPersuasionThenextmorning,atthetimewhentheheightofthesunappearedveryinsignificantfromanypartoftheheathascomparedwiththealtitudeofRainbarrow,andwhenallthelittlehillsinthelowerlevelswerelikeanarchipelagoinafog—formedAegean,thereddlemancamefromthebramblednookwhichhehadadoptedashisquartersandascendedtheslopesofMistoverKnap。

Thoughtheseshaggyhillswereapparentlysosolitary,severalkeenroundeyeswerealwaysreadyonsuchawintrymorningasthistoconvergeuponapasser—by。

Featheredspeciessojournedhereinhidingwhichwouldhavecreatedwonderiffoundelsewhere。Abustardhauntedthespot,andnotmanyyearsbeforethisfiveandtwentymighthavebeenseeninEgdonatonetime。

Marsh—harrierslookedupfromthevalleybyWildeve’s。

Acream—colouredcourserhadusedtovisitthishill,abirdsorarethatnotmorethanadozenhaveeverbeenseeninEngland;butabarbarianrestedneithernightnordaytillhehadshottheAfricantruant,andafterthateventcream—colouredcoursersthoughtfittoenterEgdonnomore。

AtravellerwhoshouldwalkandobserveanyofthesevisitantsasVennobservedthemnowcouldfeelhimselftobeindirectcommunicationwithregionsunknowntoman。

Hereinfrontofhimwasawildmallard——justarrivedfromthehomeofthenorthwind。ThecreaturebroughtwithinhimanamplitudeofNorthernknowledge。Glacialcatastrophes,snowstormepisodes,glitteringauroraleffects,Polarisinthezenith,Franklinunderfoot——thecategoryofhiscommonplaceswaswonderful。Butthebird,likemanyotherphilosophers,seemedashelookedatthereddlemantothinkthatapresentmomentofcomfortablerealitywasworthadecadeofmemories。

Vennpassedonthroughthesetowardsthehouseoftheisolatedbeautywholivedupamongthemanddespisedthem。

ThedaywasSunday;butasgoingtochurch,excepttobemarriedorburied,wasexceptionalatEgdon,thismadelittledifference。HehaddeterminedupontheboldstrokeofaskingforaninterviewwithMissVye——toattackherpositionasThomasin’srivaleitherbyartorbystorm,showingtherein,somewhattooconspicuously,thewantofgallantrycharacteristicofacertainastutesortofmen,fromclownstokings。ThegreatFrederickmakingwaronthebeautifulArchduchess,NapoleonrefusingtermstothebeautifulQueenofPrussia,werenotmoredeadtodifferenceofsexthanthereddlemanwas,inhispeculiarway,inplanningthedisplacementofEustacia。

Tocallatthecaptain’scottagewasalwaysmoreorlessanundertakingfortheinferiorinhabitants。

Thoughoccasionallychatty,hismoodswereerratic,andnobodycouldbecertainhowhewouldbehaveatanyparticularmoment。Eustaciawasreserved,andlivedverymuchtoherself。Exceptthedaughterofoneofthecotters,whowastheirservant,andaladwhoworkedinthegardenandstable,scarcelyanyonebutthemselveseverenteredthehouse。TheyweretheonlygenteelpeopleofthedistrictexcepttheYeobrights,andthoughfarfromrich,theydidnotfeelthatnecessityforpreservingafriendlyfacetowardseveryman,bird,andbeastwhichinfluencedtheirpoorerneighbours。

Whenthereddlemanenteredthegardentheoldmanwaslookingthroughhisglassatthestainofblueseainthedistantlandscape,thelittleanchorsonhisbuttonstwinklinginthesun。HerecognizedVennashiscompaniononthehighway,butmadenoremarkonthatcircumstance,merelysaying,"Ah,reddleman——youhere?Haveaglassofgrog?"

Venndeclined,onthepleaofitbeingtooearly,andstatedthathisbusinesswaswithMissVye。Thecaptainsurveyedhimfromcaptowaistcoatandfromwaistcoattoleggingsforafewmoments,andfinallyaskedhimtogoindoors。

MissVyewasnottobeseenbyanybodyjustthen;

andthereddlemanwaitedinthewindow—benchofthekitchen,hishandshangingacrosshisdivergentknees,andhiscaphangingfromhishands。

"Isupposetheyoungladyisnotupyet?"hepresentlysaidtotheservant。

"Notquiteyet。Folksnevercalluponladiesatthistimeofday。"

"ThenI’llstepoutside,"saidVenn。"Ifsheiswillingtoseeme,willshepleasesendoutword,andI’llcomein。"

Thereddlemanleftthehouseandloiteredonthehilladjoining。Aconsiderabletimeelapsed,andnorequestforhispresencewasbrought。Hewasbeginningtothinkthathisschemehadfailed,whenhebeheldtheformofEustaciaherselfcomingleisurelytowardshim。

Asenseofnoveltyingivingaudiencetothatsingularfigurehadbeensufficienttodrawherforth。

Sheseemedtofeel,afterabarelookatDiggoryVenn,thatthemanhadcomeonastrangeerrand,andthathewasnotsomeanasshehadthoughthim;forhercloseapproachdidnotcausehimtowritheuneasily,orshifthisfeet,orshowanyofthoselittlesignswhichescapeaningenuousrusticattheadventoftheuncommoninwomankind。

Onhisinquiringifhemighthaveaconversationwithhershereplied,"Yes,walkbesideme,"andcontinuedtomoveon。

Beforetheyhadgonefaritoccurredtotheperspicaciousreddlemanthathewouldhaveactedmorewiselybyappearinglessunimpressionable,andheresolvedtocorrecttheerrorassoonashecouldfindopportunity。

"Ihavemadesobold,miss,astostepacrossandtellyousomestrangenewswhichhascometomyearsaboutthatman。"

"Ah!whatman?"

Hejerkedhiselbowtothesoutheast——thedirectionoftheQuietWoman。

Eustaciaturnedquicklytohim。"DoyoumeanMr。Wildeve?"

"Yes,thereistroubleinahouseholdonaccountofhim,andIhavecometoletyouknowofit,becauseIbelieveyoumighthavepowertodriveitaway。"

"I?Whatisthetrouble?"

"Itisquiteasecret。ItisthathemayrefusetomarryThomasinYeobrightafterall。"

Eustacia,thoughsetinwardlypulsingbyhiswords,wasequaltoherpartinsuchadramaasthis。

Sherepliedcoldly,"Idonotwishtolistentothis,andyoumustnotexpectmetointerfere。"

"But,miss,youwillhearoneword?"

"Icannot。Iamnotinterestedinthemarriage,andevenifIwereIcouldnotcompelMr。Wildevetodomybidding。"

"AstheonlyladyontheheathIthinkyoumight,"saidVennwithsubtleindirectness。"Thisishowthecasestands。

Mr。WildevewouldmarryThomasinatonce,andmakeallmatterssmooth,ifsobetherewerenotanotherwomaninthecase。Thisotherwomanissomepersonhehaspickedupwith,andmeetsontheheathoccasionally,Ibelieve。Hewillnevermarryher,andyetthroughherhemaynevermarrythewomanwholoveshimdearly。

Now,ifyou,miss,whohavesomuchswayoverusmenfolk,weretoinsistthatheshouldtreatyouryoungneighbourTamsinwithhonourablekindnessandgiveuptheotherwoman,hewouldperhapsdoit,andsaveheragooddealofmisery。"

"Ah,mylife!"saidEustacia,withalaughwhichunclosedherlipssothatthesunshoneintohermouthasintoatulip,andlentitasimilarscarletfire。"Youthinktoomuchofmyinfluenceovermenfolkindeed,reddleman。

IfIhadsuchapowerasyouimagineIwouldgostraightanduseitforthegoodofanybodywhohasbeenkindtome——whichThomasinYeobrighthasnotparticularly,tomyknowledge。"

"Canitbethatyoureallydon’tknowofit——howmuchshehadalwaysthoughtofyou?"

"Ihaveneverheardawordofit。AlthoughweliveonlytwomilesapartIhaveneverbeeninsideheraunt’shouseinmylife。"

ThesuperciliousnessthatlurkedinhermannertoldVennthatthusfarhehadutterlyfailed。Heinwardlysighedandfeltitnecessarytounmaskhissecondargument。

"Well,leavingthatoutofthequestion,’tisinyourpower,Iassureyou,MissVye,todoagreatdealofgoodtoanotherwoman。"

Sheshookherhead。

"YourcomelinessislawwithMr。Wildeve。Itislawwithallmenwhosee’ee。Theysay,’Thiswell—

favouredladycoming——what’shername?Howhandsome!’

HandsomerthanThomasinYeobright,"thereddlemanpersisted,sayingtohimself,"Godforgivearascalforlying!"Andshewashandsomer,butthereddlemanwasfarfromthinkingso。

TherewasacertainobscurityinEustacia’sbeauty,andVenn’seyewasnottrained。Inherwinterdress,asnow,shewaslikethetiger—beetle,which,whenobservedindullsituations,seemstobeofthequietestneutralcolour,butunderafullilluminationblazeswithdazzlingsplendour。

Eustaciacouldnothelpreplying,thoughconsciousthatsheendangeredherdignitythereby。"ManywomenarelovelierthanThomasin,"shesaid,"sonotmuchattachestothat。"

Thereddlemansufferedthewoundandwenton:"Heisamanwhonoticesthelooksofwomen,andyoucouldtwisthimtoyourwilllikewithywind,ifyouonlyhadthemind。"

"SurelywhatshecannotdowhohasbeensomuchwithhimIcannotdolivinguphereawayfromhim。"

Thereddlemanwheeledandlookedherintheface。

"MissVye!"hesaid。

"Whydoyousaythat——asifyoudoubtedme?"Shespokefaintly,andherbreathingwasquick。"Theideaofyourspeakinginthattonetome!"sheadded,withaforcedsmileofhauteur。

"Whatcouldhavebeeninyourmindtoleadyoutospeaklikethat?"

"MissVye,whyshouldyoumakebelievethatyoudon’tknowthisman?——Iknowwhy,certainly。Heisbeneathyou,andyouareashamed。"

"Youaremistaken。Whatdoyoumean?"

Thereddlemanhaddecidedtoplaythecardoftruth。

"IwasatthemeetingbyRainbarrowlastnightandheardeveryword,"hesaid。"ThewomanthatstandsbetweenWildeveandThomasinisyourself。"

Itwasadisconcertingliftofthecurtain,andthemortificationofCandaules’wifeglowedinher。

Themomenthadarrivedwhenherlipwouldtrembleinspiteofherself,andwhenthegaspcouldnolongerbekeptdown。

"Iamunwell,"shesaidhurriedly。"No——itisnotthat——I

amnotinahumourtohearyoufurther。Leaveme,please。"

"Imustspeak,MissVye,inspiteofpainingyou。

WhatIwouldputbeforeyouisthis。Howeveritmaycomeabout——whethersheistoblame,oryou——hercaseiswithoutdoubtworsethanyours。YourgivingupMr。Wildevewillbearealadvantagetoyou,forhowcouldyoumarryhim?

Nowshecannotgetoffsoeasily——everybodywillblameherifsheloseshim。ThenIaskyou——notbecauseherrightisbest,butbecausehersituationisworst——togivehimuptoher。"

"No——Iwon’t,Iwon’t!"shesaidimpetuously,quiteforgetfulofherpreviousmannertowardsthereddlemanasanunderling。

"Nobodyhaseverbeenservedso!Itwasgoingonwell——I

willnotbebeatendown——byaninferiorwomanlikeher。

Itisverywellforyoutocomeandpleadforher,butisshenotherselfthecauseofallherowntrouble?

AmInottoshowfavourtoanypersonImaychoosewithoutaskingpermissionofaparcelofcottagers?Shehascomebetweenmeandmyinclination,andnowthatshefindsherselfrightlypunishedshegetsyoutopleadforher!"

"Indeed,"saidVennearnestly,"sheknowsnothingwhateveraboutit。ItisonlyIwhoaskyoutogivehimup。

Itwillbebetterforherandyouboth。Peoplewillsaybadthingsiftheyfindoutthataladysecretlymeetsamanwhohasill—usedanotherwoman。"

"IhaveNOTinjuredher——hewasminebeforehewashers!Hecameback——because——becausehelikedmebest!"

shesaidwildly。"ButIloseallself—respectintalkingtoyou。WhatamIgivingwayto!"

"Icankeepsecrets,"saidVenngently。"Youneednotfear。

Iamtheonlymanwhoknowsofyourmeetingswithhim。

Thereisbutonethingmoretospeakof,andthenIwillbegone。Iheardyousaytohimthatyouhatedlivinghere——thatEgdonHeathwasajailtoyou。"

"Ididsayso。Thereisasortofbeautyinthescenery,Iknow;butitisajailtome。Themanyoumentiondoesnotsavemefromthatfeeling,thoughheliveshere。

Ishouldhavecarednothingforhimhadtherebeenabetterpersonnear。"

Thereddlemanlookedhopeful;afterthesewordsfromherhisthirdattemptseemedpromising。"Aswehavenowopenedourmindsabit,miss,"hesaid,"I’lltellyouwhatIhavegottopropose。SinceIhavetakentothereddletradeItravelagooddeal,asyouknow。"

Sheinclinedherhead,andsweptroundsothathereyesrestedinthemistyvalebeneaththem。

"AndinmytravelsIgonearBudmouth。NowBudmouthisawonderfulplace——wonderful——agreatsaltsheeningseabendingintothelandlikeabow——thousandsofgentlepeoplewalkingupanddown——bandsofmusicplaying——officersbyseaandofficersbylandwalkingamongtherest——outofeverytenfolksyoumeetnineof’eminlove。"

"Iknowit,"shesaiddisdainfully。"IknowBudmouthbetterthanyou。Iwasbornthere。Myfathercametobeamilitarymusiciantherefromabroad。Ah,mysoul,Budmouth!IwishIwastherenow。"

Thereddlemanwassurprisedtoseehowaslowfirecouldblazeonoccasion。"Ifyouwere,miss,"hereplied,"inaweek’stimeyouwouldthinknomoreofWildevethanofoneofthosehe’th—croppersthatweseeyond。

Now,Icouldgetyouthere。"

"How?"saidEustacia,withintensecuriosityinherheavyeyes。

"Myunclehasbeenforfiveandtwentyyearsthetrustymanofarichwidow—ladywhohasabeautifulhousefacingthesea。Thisladyhasbecomeoldandlame,andshewantsayoungcompany—keepertoreadandsingtoher,butcan’tgetonetohermindtosaveherlife,thoughshe’veadvertisedinthepapers,andtriedhalfadozen。Shewouldjumptogetyou,andUnclewouldmakeitalleasy。"

"Ishouldhavetowork,perhaps?"

"No,notrealwork——you’dhavealittletodo,suchasreadingandthat。YouwouldnotbewantedtillNewYear’sDay。"

"Iknewitmeantwork,"shesaid,droopingtolanguoragain。

"Iconfesstherewouldbeatrifletodointhewayofamusingher;butthoughidlepeoplemightcallitwork,workingpeoplewouldcallitplay。Thinkofthecompanyandthelifeyou’dlead,miss;thegaietyyou’dsee,andthegentlemanyou’dmarry。Myuncleistoinquireforatrustworthyyoungladyfromthecountry,asshedon’tliketowngirls。"

"Itistowearmyselfouttopleaseher!andIwon’tgo。

O,ifIcouldliveinagaytownasaladyshould,andgomyownways,anddomyowndoings,I’dgivethewrinkledhalfofmylife!Yes,reddleman,thatwouldI。"

"HelpmetogetThomasinhappy,miss,andthechanceshallbeyours,"urgedhercompanion。

"Chance——’tisnochance,"shesaidproudly。"Whatcanapoormanlikeyouofferme,indeed?——Iamgoingindoors。

Ihavenothingmoretosay。Don’tyourhorseswantfeeding,oryourreddlebagswantmending,ordon’tyouwanttofindbuyersforyourgoods,thatyoustayidlingherelikethis?"

Vennspokenotanotherword。Withhishandsbehindhimheturnedaway,thatshemightnotseethehopelessdisappointmentinhisface。Thementalclearnessandpowerhehadfoundinthislonelygirlhadindeedfilledhismannerwithmisgivingevenfromthefirstfewminutesofclosequarterswithher。Heryouthandsituationhadledhimtoexpectasimplicityquiteatthebeckofhismethod。

ButasystemofinducementwhichmighthavecarriedweakercountrylassesalongwithithadmerelyrepelledEustacia。

Asarule,thewordBudmouthmeantfascinationonEgdon。

ThatRoyalportandwateringplace,iftrulymirroredinthemindsoftheheathfolk,musthavecombined,inacharmingandindescribablemanneraCarthaginianbustleofbuildingwithTarentineluxuriousnessandBaianhealthandbeauty。

Eustaciafeltlittlelessextravagantlyabouttheplace;

butshewouldnotsinkherindependencetogetthere。

WhenDiggoryVennhadgonequiteaway,Eustaciawalkedtothebankandlookeddownthewildandpicturesquevaletowardsthesun,whichwasalsointhedirectionofWildeve’s。Themisthadnowsofarcollapsedthatthetipsofthetreesandbushesaroundhishousecouldjustbediscerned,asifboringupwardsthroughavastwhitecobwebwhichcloakedthemfromtheday。

Therewasnodoubtthathermindwasinclinedthitherward;

indefinitely,fancifully——twininganduntwiningabouthimasthesingleobjectwithinherhorizononwhichdreamsmightcrystallize。Themanwhohadbegunbybeingmerelyheramusement,andwouldneverhavebeenmorethanherhobbybutforhisskillindesertingherattherightmoments,wasnowagainherdesire。

Cessationinhislove—makinghadrevivifiedherlove。

SuchfeelingasEustaciahadidlygiventoWildevewasdammedintoafloodbyThomasin。ShehadusedtoteaseWildeve,butthatwasbeforeanotherhadfavouredhim。Oftenadropofironyintoanindifferentsituationrendersthewholepiquant。

"Iwillnevergivehimup——never!"shesaidimpetuously。

Thereddleman’shintthatrumourmightshowhertodisadvantagehadnopermanentterrorforEustacia。Shewasasunconcernedatthatcontingencyasagoddessatalackoflinen。