第19章

Shelookedanotherway,disconcerted,andwonderedhowlongthispurgatorywastolast。Afterlingeringafewsecondshepassedonagain。

Tocourttheirowndiscomfiturebyloveisacommoninstinctwithcertainperfervidwomen。Conflictingsensationsoflove,fear,andshamereducedEustaciatoastateoftheutmostuneasiness。Toescapewashergreatandimmediatedesire。Theothermummersappearedtobeinnohurrytoleave;andmurmuringtotheladwhosatnexttoherthatshepreferredwaitingforthemoutsidethehouse,shemovedtothedoorasimperceptiblyaspossible,openedit,andslippedout。

Thecalm,lonescenereassuredher。Shewentforwardtothepalingsandleantoverthem,lookingatthemoon。

Shehadstoodthusbutalittletimewhenthedooragainopened。

ExpectingtoseetheremainderofthebandEustaciaturned;

butno——ClymYeobrightcameoutassoftlyasshehaddone,andclosedthedoorbehindhim。

Headvancedandstoodbesideher。"Ihaveanoddopinion,"

hesaid,"andshouldliketoaskyouaquestion。Areyouawoman——oramIwrong?"

"Iamawoman。"

Hiseyeslingeredonherwithgreatinterest。"Dogirlsoftenplayasmummersnow?Theyneverusedto。"

"Theydon’tnow。"

"Whydidyou?"

"Togetexcitementandshakeoffdepression,"shesaidinlowtones。

"Whatdepressedyou?"

"Life。"

"That’sacauseofdepressionagoodmanyhavetoputupwith。"

"Yes。"

Alongsilence。"Anddoyoufindexcitement?"askedClymatlast。

"Atthismoment,perhaps。"

"Thenyouarevexedatbeingdiscovered?"

"Yes;thoughIthoughtImightbe。"

"IwouldgladlyhaveaskedyoutoourpartyhadIknownyouwishedtocome。HaveIeverbeenacquaintedwithyouinmyyouth?"

"Never。"

"Won’tyoucomeinagain,andstayaslongasyoulike?"

"No。Iwishnottobefurtherrecognized。"

"Well,youaresafewithme。"Afterremaininginthoughtaminuteheaddedgently,"Iwillnotintrudeuponyoulonger。

Itisastrangewayofmeeting,andIwillnotaskwhyIfindacultivatedwomanplayingsuchapartasthis。"

Shedidnotvolunteerthereasonwhichheseemedtohopefor,andhewishedhergoodnight,goingthenceroundtothebackofthehouse,wherehewalkedupanddownbyhimselfforsometimebeforere—entering。

Eustacia,warmedwithaninnerfire,couldnotwaitforhercompanionsafterthis。Sheflungbacktheribbonsfromherface,openedthegate,andatoncestruckintotheheath。Shedidnothastenalong。Hergrandfatherwasinbedatthishour,forshesofrequentlywalkeduponthehillsonmoonlightnightsthathetooknonoticeofhercomingsandgoings,and,enjoyinghimselfinhisownway,lefthertodolikewise。Amoreimportantsubjectthanthatofgettingindoorsnowengrossedher。

Yeobright,ifhehadtheleastcuriosity,wouldinfalliblydiscoverhername。Whatthen?Shefirstfeltasortofexultationatthewayinwhichtheadventurehadterminated,eventhoughatmomentsbetweenherexultationsshewasabashedandblushful。Thenthisconsiderationrecurredtochillher:Whatwastheuseofherexploit?ShewasatpresentatotalstrangertotheYeobrightfamily。

Theunreasonablenimbusofromancewithwhichshehadencircledthatmanmightbehermisery。Howcouldsheallowherselftobecomesoinfatuatedwithastranger?AndtofillthecupofhersorrowtherewouldbeThomasin,livingdayafterdayininflammableproximitytohim;

forshehadjustlearntthat,contrarytoherfirstbelief,hewasgoingtostayathomesomeconsiderabletime。

ShereachedthewicketatMistoverKnap,butbeforeopeningitsheturnedandfacedtheheathoncemore。

TheformofRainbarrowstoodabovethehills,andthemoonstoodaboveRainbarrow。Theairwaschargedwithsilenceandfrost。ThesceneremindedEustaciaofacircumstancewhichtillthatmomentshehadtotallyforgotten。

ShehadpromisedtomeetWildevebytheBarrowthisverynightateight,togiveafinalanswertohispleadingforanelopement。

Sheherselfhadfixedtheeveningandthehour。

Hehadprobablycometothespot,waitedthereinthecold,andbeengreatlydisappointed。

"Well,somuchthebetter——itdidnothurthim,"

shesaidserenely。Wildevehadatpresenttheraylessoutlineofthesunthroughsmokedglass,andshecouldsaysuchthingsasthatwiththegreatestfacility。

Sheremaineddeeplypondering;andThomasin’swinningmannertowardshercousinaroseagainuponEustacia’smind。

"OthatshehadbeenmarriedtoDamonbeforethis!"

shesaid。"Andshewouldifithadn’tbeenforme!IfI

hadonlyknown——ifIhadonlyknown!"

Eustaciaoncemoreliftedherdeepstormyeyestothemoonlight,and,sighingthattragicsighofherswhichwassomuchlikeashudder,enteredtheshadowoftheroof。Shethrewoffhertrappingsintheouthouse,rolledthemup,andwentindoorstoherchamber。

7—ACoalitionbetweenBeautyandOddnessTheoldcaptain’sprevailingindifferencetohisgranddaughter’smovementsleftherfreeasabirdtofollowherowncourses;butitsohappenedthathedidtakeuponhimselfthenextmorningtoaskherwhyshehadwalkedoutsolate。

"Onlyinsearchofevents,Grandfather,"shesaid,lookingoutofthewindowwiththatdrowsylatencyofmannerwhichdiscoveredsomuchforcebehinditwheneverthetriggerwaspressed。

"Searchofevents——onewouldthinkyouwereoneofthebucksIknewatone—and—twenty。"

"Itislonelyhere。"

"Somuchthebetter。IfIwerelivinginatownmywholetimewouldbetakenupinlookingafteryou。

IfullyexpectedyouwouldhavebeenhomewhenIreturnedfromtheWoman。"

"Iwon’tconcealwhatIdid。Iwantedanadventure,andIwentwiththemummers。IplayedthepartoftheTurkishKnight。"

"No,never?Ha,ha!Goodgad!Ididn’texpectitofyou,Eustacia。"

"Itwasmyfirstperformance,anditcertainlywillbemylast。NowIhavetoldyou——andrememberitisasecret。"

"Ofcourse。But,Eustacia,youneverdid——ha!ha!Dammy,how’twouldhavepleasedmefortyyearsago!Butremember,nomoreofit,mygirl。Youmaywalkontheheathnightorday,asyouchoose,sothatyoudon’tbotherme;

butnofiguringinbreechesagain。"

"Youneedhavenofearforme,Grandpapa。"

Heretheconversationceased,Eustacia’smoraltrainingneverexceedinginseverityadialogueofthissort,which,ifiteverbecameprofitabletogoodworks,wouldbearesultnotdearattheprice。Butherthoughtssoonstrayedfarfromherownpersonality;and,fullofapassionateandindescribablesolicitudeforonetowhomshewasnotevenaname,shewentforthintotheamplitudeoftannedwildaroundher,restlessasAhasuerustheJew。

Shewasabouthalfamilefromherresidencewhenshebeheldasinisterrednessarisingfromaravinealittlewayinadvance——dullandluridlikeaflameinsunlightandsheguessedittosignifyDiggoryVenn。

WhenthefarmerswhohadwishedtobuyinanewstockofreddleduringthelastmonthhadinquiredwhereVennwastobefound,peoplereplied,"OnEgdonHeath。"

Dayafterdaytheanswerwasthesame。Now,sinceEgdonwaspopulatedwithheath—croppersandfurze—cuttersratherthanwithsheepandshepherds,andthedownswheremostofthelatterweretobefoundlaysometothenorth,sometothewestofEgdon,hisreasonforcampingabouttherelikeIsraelinZinwasnotapparent。

Thepositionwascentralandoccasionallydesirable。

ButthesaleofreddlewasnotDiggory’sprimaryobjectinremainingontheheath,particularlyatsolateaperiodoftheyear,whenmosttravellersofhisclasshadgoneintowinterquarters。

Eustacialookedatthelonelyman。WildevehadtoldherattheirlastmeetingthatVennhadbeenthrustforwardbyMrs。YeobrightasonereadyandanxioustotakehisplaceasThomasin’sbetrothed。Hisfigurewasperfect,hisfaceyoungandwelloutlined,hiseyebright,hisintelligencekeen,andhispositiononewhichhecouldreadilybetterifhechose。ButinspiteofpossibilitiesitwasnotlikelythatThomasinwouldacceptthisIshmaelitishcreaturewhileshehadacousinlikeYeobrightatherelbow,andWildeveatthesametimenotabsolutelyindifferent。

EustaciawasnotlonginguessingthatpoorMrs。Yeobright,inheranxietyforherniece’sfuture,hadmentionedthislovertostimulatethezealoftheother。

EustaciawasonthesideoftheYeobrightsnow,andenteredintothespiritoftheaunt’sdesire。

"Goodmorning,miss,"saidthereddleman,takingoffhiscapofhareskin,andapparentlybearinghernoill—

willfromrecollectionoftheirlastmeeting。

"Goodmorning,reddleman,"shesaid,hardlytroublingtoliftherheavilyshadedeyestohis。"Ididnotknowyouweresonear。Isyourvanheretoo?"

Vennmovedhiselbowtowardsahollowinwhichadensebrakeofpurple—stemmedbrambleshadgrowntosuchvastdimensionsasalmosttoformadell。Brambles,thoughchurlishwhenhandled,arekindlyshelterinearlywinter,beingthelatestofthedeciduousbushestolosetheirleaves。

TheroofandchimneyofVenn’scaravanshowedbehindthetraceryandtanglesofthebrake。

"Youremainnearthispart?"sheaskedwithmoreinterest。

"Yes,Ihavebusinesshere。"

"Notaltogetherthesellingofreddle?"

"Ithasnothingtodowiththat。"

"IthastodowithMissYeobright?"

Herfaceseemedtoaskforanarmedpeace,andhethereforesaidfrankly,"Yes,miss;itisonaccountofher。"

"Onaccountofyourapproachingmarriagewithher?"

Vennflushedthroughhisstain。"Don’tmakesportofme,MissVye,"hesaid。

"Itisn’ttrue?"

"Certainlynot。"

ShewasthusconvincedthatthereddlemanwasamerepisallerinMrs。Yeobright’smind;one,moreover,whohadnotevenbeeninformedofhispromotiontothatlowlystanding。"Itwasamerenotionofmine,"

shesaidquietly;andwasabouttopassbywithoutfurtherspeech,when,lookingroundtotheright,shesawapainfullywell—knownfigureserpentiningupwardsbyoneofthelittlepathswhichledtothetopwhereshestood。

Owingtothenecessarywindingsofhiscoursehisbackwasatpresenttowardsthem。Sheglancedquicklyround;

toescapethatmantherewasonlyoneway。TurningtoVenn,shesaid,"Wouldyouallowmetorestafewminutesinyourvan?Thebanksaredampforsittingon。"

"Certainly,miss;I’llmakeaplaceforyou。"

ShefollowedhimbehindthedellofbramblestohiswheeleddwellingintowhichVennmounted,placingthethree—leggedstooljustwithinthedoor。

"ThatisthebestIcandoforyou,"hesaid,steppingdownandretiringtothepath,whereheresumedthesmokingofhispipeashewalkedupanddown。

Eustaciaboundedintothevehicleandsatonthestool,ensconcedfromviewonthesidetowardsthetrackway。

Soonsheheardthebrushingofotherfeetthanthereddleman’s,anotveryfriendly"Goodday"utteredbytwomeninpassingeachother,andthenthedwindlingofthefoot—fallofoneoftheminadirectiononwards。

Eustaciastretchedherneckforwardtillshecaughtaglimpseofarecedingbackandshoulders;andshefeltawretchedtwingeofmisery,sheknewnotwhy。

Itwasthesickeningfeelingwhich,ifthechangedhearthasanygenerosityatallinitscomposition,accompaniesthesuddensightofaonce—lovedonewhoisbelovednomore。

WhenEustaciadescendedtoproceedonherwaythereddlemancamenear。"ThatwasMr。Wildevewhopassed,miss,"hesaidslowly,andexpressedbyhisfacethatheexpectedhertofeelvexedathavingbeensittingunseen。

"Yes,Isawhimcomingupthehill,"repliedEustacia。

"Whyshouldyoutellmethat?"Itwasaboldquestion,consideringthereddleman’sknowledgeofherpastlove;

butherundemonstrativemannerhadpowertorepresstheopinionsofthoseshetreatedasremotefromher。

"Iamgladtohearthatyoucanaskit,"saidthereddlemanbluntly。"And,nowIthinkofit,itagreeswithwhatIsawlastnight。"

"Ah——whatwasthat?"Eustaciawishedtoleavehim,butwishedtoknow。

"Mr。WildevestayedatRainbarrowalongtimewaitingforaladywhodidn’tcome。"

"Youwaitedtoo,itseems?"

"Yes,Ialwaysdo。Iwasgladtoseehimdisappointed。

Hewillbethereagaintonight。"

"Tobeagaindisappointed。Thetruthis,reddleman,thatthatlady,sofarfromwishingtostandinthewayofThomasin’smarriagewithMr。Wildeve,wouldbeverygladtopromoteit。"

Vennfeltmuchastonishmentatthisavowal,thoughhedidnotshowitclearly;thatexhibitionmaygreetremarkswhichareoneremovefromexpectation,butitisusuallywithheldincomplicatedcasesoftworemovesandupwards。

"Indeed,miss,"hereplied。

"HowdoyouknowthatMr。WildevewillcometoRainbarrowagaintonight?"sheasked。

"Iheardhimsaytohimselfthathewould。He’sinaregulartemper。"

Eustacialookedforamomentwhatshefelt,andshemurmured,liftingherdeepdarkeyesanxiouslytohis,"IwishI

knewwhattodo。Idon’twanttobeunciviltohim;

butIdon’twishtoseehimagain;andIhavesomefewlittlethingstoreturntohim。"

"Ifyouchoosetosend’embyme,miss,andanotetotellhimthatyouwishtosaynomoretohim,I’lltakeitforyouquiteprivately。Thatwouldbethemoststraightforwardwayoflettinghimknowyourmind。"

"Verywell,"saidEustacia。"Cometowardsmyhouse,andIwillbringitouttoyou。"

Shewenton,andasthepathwasaninfinitelysmallpartingintheshaggylocksoftheheath,thereddlemanfollowedexactlyinhertrail。Shesawfromadistancethatthecaptainwasonthebanksweepingthehorizonwithhistelescope;andbiddingVenntowaitwherehestoodsheenteredthehousealone。

Intenminutesshereturnedwithaparcelandanote,andsaid,inplacingtheminhishand,"Whyareyousoreadytotaketheseforme?"

"Canyouaskthat?"

"IsupposeyouthinktoserveThomasininsomewaybyit。

Areyouasanxiousasevertohelponhermarriage?"

Vennwasalittlemoved。"Iwouldsoonerhavemarriedhermyself,"hesaidinalowvoice。"ButwhatIfeelisthatifshecannotbehappywithouthimIwilldomydutyinhelpinghertogethim,asamanought。"

Eustacialookedcuriouslyatthesingularmanwhospokethus。

Whatastrangesortoflove,tobeentirelyfreefromthatqualityofselfishnesswhichisfrequentlythechiefconstituentofthepassion,andsometimesitsonlyone!Thereddleman’sdisinterestednesswassowelldeservingofrespectthatitovershotrespectbybeingbarelycomprehended;andshealmostthoughtitabsurd。

"Thenwearebothofonemindatlast,"shesaid。

"Yes,"repliedVenngloomily。"Butifyouwouldtellme,miss,whyyoutakesuchaninterestinher,Ishouldbeeasier。Itissosuddenandstrange。"

Eustaciaappearedataloss。"Icannottellyouthat,reddleman,"shesaidcoldly。

Vennsaidnomore。Hepocketedtheletter,and,bowingtoEustacia,wentaway。

RainbarrowhadagainbecomeblendedwithnightwhenWildeveascendedthelongacclivityatitsbase。

Onhisreachingthetopashapegrewupfromtheearthimmediatelybehindhim。ItwasthatofEustacia’semissary。

HeslappedWildeveontheshoulder。Thefeverishyounginn—keeperandex—engineerstartedlikeSatanatthetouchofIthuriel’sspear。

"Themeetingisalwaysateighto’clock,atthisplace,"

saidVenn,"andhereweare——wethree。"

"Wethree?"saidWildeve,lookingquicklyround。

"Yes;you,andI,andshe。Thisisshe。"Hehelduptheletterandparcel。

Wildevetookthemwonderingly。"Idon’tquiteseewhatthismeans,"hesaid。"Howdoyoucomehere?

Theremustbesomemistake。"

"Itwillbeclearedfromyourmindwhenyouhavereadtheletter。Lanternsforone。"Thereddlemanstruckalight,kindledaninchoftallow—candlewhichhehadbrought,andsheltereditwithhiscap。

"Whoareyou?"saidWildeve,discerningbythecandle—

lightanobscurerubicundityofpersoninhiscompanion。

"YouarethereddlemanIsawonthehillthismorning——why,youarethemanwho————"

"Pleasereadtheletter。"

"IfyouhadcomefromtheotheroneIshouldn’thavebeensurprised,"murmuredWildeveasheopenedtheletterandread。Hisfacegrewserious。

TOMR。WILDEVE。

AftersomethoughtIhavedecidedonceandforallthatwemustholdnofurthercommunication。ThemoreIconsiderthematterthemoreIamconvincedthattheremustbeanendtoouracquaintance。Hadyoubeenuniformlyfaithfultomethroughoutthesetwoyearsyoumightnowhavesomegroundforaccusingmeofheartlessness;

butifyoucalmlyconsiderwhatIboreduringtheperiodofyourdesertion,andhowIpassivelyputupwithyourcourtshipofanotherwithoutonceinterfering,youwill,Ithink,ownthatIhavearighttoconsultmyownfeelingswhenyoucomebacktomeagain。Thatthesearenotwhattheyweretowardsyoumay,perhaps,beafaultinme,butitisonewhichyoucanscarcelyreproachmeforwhenyourememberhowyouleftmeforThomasin。

Thelittlearticlesyougavemeintheearlypartofourfriendshiparereturnedbythebearerofthisletter。

TheyshouldrightlyhavebeensentbackwhenIfirstheardofyourengagementtoher。

EUSTACIA。

BythetimethatWildevereachedhernametheblanknesswithwhichhehadreadthefirsthalfoftheletterintensifiedtomortification。"Iammadeagreatfoolof,onewayandanother,"hesaidpettishly。"Doyouknowwhatisinthisletter?"

Thereddlemanhummedatune。

"Can’tyouanswerme?"askedWildevewarmly。

"Ru—um—tum—tum,"sangthereddleman。

WildevestoodlookingonthegroundbesideVenn’sfeet,tillheallowedhiseyestotravelupwardsoverDiggory’sform,asilluminatedbythecandle,tohisheadandface。

"Ha—ha!Well,IsupposeIdeserveit,consideringhowIhaveplayedwiththemboth,"hesaidatlast,asmuchtohimselfastoVenn。"ButofalltheoddthingsthateverIknew,theoddestisthatyoushouldsoruncountertoyourowninterestsastobringthistome。"

"Myinterests?"

"Certainly。’TwasyourinterestnottodoanythingwhichwouldsendmecourtingThomasinagain,nowshehasacceptedyou——orsomethinglikeit。Mrs。Yeobrightsaysyouaretomarryher。’Tisn’ttrue,then?"

"GoodLord!Iheardofthisbefore,butdidn’tbelieveit。

Whendidshesayso?"

Wildevebeganhummingasthereddlemanhaddone。

"Idon’tbelieveitnow,"criedVenn。

"Ru—um—tum—tum,"sangWildeve。

"OLord——howwecanimitate!"saidVenncontemptuously。

"I’llhavethisout。I’llgostraighttoher。"

Diggorywithdrewwithanemphaticstep,Wildeve’seyepassingoverhisforminwitheringderision,asifhewerenomorethanaheath—cropper。Whenthereddleman’sfigurecouldnolongerbeseen,Wildevehimselfdescendedandplungedintotheraylesshollowofthevale。

Tolosethetwowomen——hewhohadbeenthewell—belovedofboth——wastooironicalanissuetobeendured。

HecouldonlydecentlysavehimselfbyThomasin;

andoncehebecameherhusband,Eustacia’srepentance,hethought,wouldsetinforalongandbitterterm。

ItwasnowonderthatWildeve,ignorantofthenewmanatthebackofthescene,shouldhavesupposedEustaciatobeplayingapart。Tobelievethattheletterwasnottheresultofsomemomentarypique,toinferthatshereallygavehimuptoThomasin,wouldhaverequiredpreviousknowledgeofhertransfigurationbythatman’sinfluence。

Whowastoknowthatshehadgrowngenerousinthegreedinessofanewpassion,thatincovetingonecousinshewasdealingliberallywithanother,thatinhereagernesstoappropriateshegaveway?

Fullofthisresolvetomarryinhaste,andwringtheheartoftheproudgirl,Wildevewenthisway。

MeanwhileDiggoryVennhadreturnedtohisvan,wherehestoodlookingthoughtfullyintothestove。

Anewvistawasopeneduptohim。But,howeverpromisingMrs。Yeobright’sviewsofhimmightbeasacandidateforherniece’shand,oneconditionwasindispensabletothefavourofThomasinherself,andthatwasarenunciationofhispresentwildmodeoflife。Inthishesawlittledifficulty。

HecouldnotaffordtowaittillthenextdaybeforeseeingThomasinanddetailinghisplan。Hespeedilyplungedhimselfintotoiletoperations,pulledasuitofclothclothesfromabox,andinabouttwentyminutesstoodbeforethevan—lanternasareddlemaninnothingbuthisface,thevermilionshadesofwhichwerenottoberemovedinaday。Closingthedoorandfasteningitwithapadlock,VennsetofftowardsBlooms—End。

Hehadreachedthewhitepalingsandlaidhishanduponthegatewhenthedoorofthehouseopened,andquicklyclosedagain。Afemaleformhadglidedin。

Atthesametimeaman,whohadseeminglybeenstandingwiththewomanintheporch,cameforwardfromthehousetillhewasfacetofacewithVenn。ItwasWildeveagain。

"Manalive,you’vebeenquickatit,"saidDiggorysarcastically。

"Andyouslow,asyouwillfind,"saidWildeve。

"And,"loweringhisvoice,"youmayaswellgobackagainnow。I’veclaimedher,andgother。

Goodnight,reddleman!"ThereuponWildevewalkedaway。

Venn’sheartsankwithinhim,thoughithadnotrisenundulyhigh。Hestoodleaningoverthepalingsinanindecisivemoodfornearlyaquarterofanhour。

Thenhewentupthegardenpath,knocked,andaskedforMrs。Yeobright。

Insteadofrequestinghimtoentershecametotheporch。

Adiscoursewascarriedonbetweentheminlowmeasuredtonesforthespaceoftenminutesormore。AttheendofthetimeMrs。Yeobrightwentin,andVennsadlyretracedhisstepsintotheheath。Whenhehadagainregainedhisvanhelitthelantern,andwithanapatheticfaceatoncebegantopulloffhisbestclothes,tillinthecourseofafewminuteshereappearedastheconfirmedandirretrievablereddlemanthathehadseemedbefore。

8—FirmnessIsDiscoveredinaGentleHeartOnthateveningtheinteriorofBlooms—End,thoughcosyandcomfortable,hadbeenrathersilent。ClymYeobrightwasnotathome。SincetheChristmaspartyhehadgoneonafewdays’visittoafriendabouttenmilesoff。

TheshadowyformseenbyVenntopartfromWildeveintheporch,andquicklywithdrawintothehouse,wasThomasin’s。Onenteringshethrewdownacloakwhichhadbeencarelesslywrappedroundher,andcameforwardtothelight,whereMrs。Yeobrightsatatherwork—table,drawnupwithinthesettle,sothatpartofitprojectedintothechimney—corner。