第12章

IhaveheardwhatIbelievewasitsremotemusicalprogenitorinthechurchofSS。GiovanniePaoloatVenicenotfiveyearssince;andagainIhavehearditfarawayinmid-Atlanticuponagreysea-

SabbathinJune,whenneitherwindsnorwavesarestirring,sothattheemigrantsgatherondeck,andtheirplaintivepsalmgoesforthuponthesilverhazeofthesky,andonthewildernessofaseathathassighedtillitcansighnolonger。OritmaybeheardatsomeMethodistCampMeetinguponaWelshhillside,butinthechurchesitisgoneforever。IfIwereamusicianIwouldtakeitasthesubjectfortheadagioinaWesleyansymphony。

Gonenowaretheclarinet,thevioloncelloandthetrombone,wildminstrelsyasofthedolefulcreaturesinEzekiel,discordant,butinfinitelypathetic。Goneisthatscarebabestentor,thatbellowingbullofBashanthevillageblacksmith,goneisthemelodiouscarpenter,gonethebrawnyshepherdwiththeredhair,whoroaredmorelustilythanall,untiltheycametothewords,“Shepherdswithyourflocksabiding。”whenmodestycoveredhimwithconfusion,andcompelledhimtobesilent,asthoughhisownhealthwerebeingdrunk。Theyweredoomedandhadapresentimentofevil,evenwhenfirstIsawthem,buttheyhadstillalittleleaseofchoirliferemaining,andtheyroaredout[wick-edhandshavepiercedandnailedhim,piercedandnailedhimtoatree。]

butnodescriptioncangiveaproperideaoftheeffect。WhenIwaslastinBattersbychurchtherewasaharmoniumplayedbyasweet-

lookinggirlwithachoirofschoolchildrenaroundher,andtheychantedthecanticlestothemostcorrectofchants,andtheysangHymnsAncientandModern;thehighpewsweregone,nay,theverygalleryinwhichtheoldchoirhadsungwasremovedasanaccursedthingwhichmightremindthepeopleofthehighplaces,andTheobaldwasold,andChristinawaslyingundertheyewtreesinthechurchyard。

ButintheeveninglateronIsawthreeveryoldmencomechucklingoutofadissentingchapel,andsurelyenoughtheyweremyoldfriendstheblacksmith,thecarpenterandtheshepherd。Therewasalookofcontentupontheirfaceswhichmademefeelcertaintheyhadbeensinging;notdoubtlesswiththeoldgloryofthevioloncello,theclarinetandthetrombone,butstillsongsofSionandnonewfangledpapistry。

Thehymnhadengagedmyattention;whenitwasoverIhadtimetotakestockofthecongregation。Theywerechieflyfarmers——fat,verywell-to-dofolk,whohadcomesomeofthemwiththeirwivesandchildrenfromoutlyingfarmstwoandthreemilesaway;hatersofpoperyandofanythingwhichanyonemightchoosetosaywaspopish;

good,sensiblefellowswhodetestedtheoryofanykind,whoseidealwasthemaintenanceofthestatusquowithperhapsalovingreminiscenceofoldwartimes,andasenseofwrongthattheweatherwasnotmorecompletelyundertheircontrol,whodesiredhigherpricesandcheaperwages,butotherwiseweremostcontentedwhenthingswerechangingleast;tolerators,ifnotlovers,ofallthatwasfamiliar,hatersofallthatwasunfamiliar;theywouldhavebeenequallyhorrifiedathearingtheChristianreligiondoubted,andatseeingitpractised。

“WhatcantherebeincommonbetweenTheobaldandhisparishioners?”

saidChristinatome,inthecourseoftheevening,whenherhusbandwasforafewmomentsabsent。“Ofcourseonemustnotcomplain,butIassureyouitgrievesmetoseeamanofTheobald’sabilitythrownawayuponsuchaplaceasthis。IfwehadonlybeenatGaysbury,wheretherearetheA’s,theB’s,theC’s,andLordD’splace,asyouknow,quiteclose,Ishouldnotthenhavefeltthatwewerelivinginsuchadesert;butIsupposeitisforthebest。”sheaddedmorecheerfully;“andthenofcoursetheBishopwillcometouswheneverheisintheneighbourhood,andifwewereatGaysburyhemighthavegonetoLordD’s。”

PerhapsIhavenowsaidenoughtoindicatethekindofplaceinwhichTheobald’slineswerecast,andthesortofwomanhehadmarried。Asforhisownhabits,Iseehimtrudgingthroughmuddylanesandoverlongsweepsofplover-hauntedpasturestovisitadyingcottager’swife。Hetakeshermeatandwinefromhisowntable,andthatnotalittleonlybutliberally。Accordingtohislightsalso,headministerswhatheispleasedtocallspiritualconsolation。

“IamafraidI’mgoingtoHell,Sir。”saysthesickwomanwithawhine。“Oh,Sir,saveme,saveme,don’tletmegothere。I

couldn’tstandit,Sir,Ishoulddiewithfear,theverythoughtofitdrivesmeintoacoldsweatallover。”

“MrsThompson。”saysTheobaldgravely,“youmusthavefaithinthepreciousbloodofyourRedeemer;itisHealonewhocansaveyou。”

“Butareyousure,Sir。”saysshe,lookingwistfullyathim,“thatHewillforgiveme——forI’venotbeenaverygoodwoman,indeedI

haven’t——andifGodwouldonlysay’Yes’outrightwithHismouthwhenIaskwhethermysinsareforgivenme——“

“ButtheyAREforgivenyou,MrsThompson。”saysTheobaldwithsomesternness,forthesamegroundhasbeengoneoveragoodmanytimesalready,andhehasbornetheunhappywoman’smisgivingsnowforafullquarterofanhour。Thenheputsastoptotheconversationbyrepeatingprayerstakenfromthe“VisitationoftheSick。”andoverawesthepoorwretchfromexpressingfurtheranxietyastohercondition。

“Can’tyoutellme,Sir。”sheexclaimspiteously,assheseesthatheispreparingtogoaway,“can’tyoutellmethatthereisnoDayofJudgement,andthatthereisnosuchplaceasHell?IcandowithouttheHeaven,Sir,butIcannotdowiththeHell。”Theobaldismuchshocked。

“MrsThompson。”herejoinsimpressively,“letmeimploreyoutosuffernodoubtconcerningthesetwocornerstonesofourreligiontocrossyourmindatamomentlikethepresent。IfthereisonethingmorecertainthananotheritisthatweshallallappearbeforetheJudgementSeatofChrist,andthatthewickedwillbeconsumedinalakeofeverlastingfire。Doubtthis,MrsThompson,andyouarelost。”

Thepoorwomanburiesherfeveredheadinthecoverletinaparoxysmoffearwhichatlastfindsreliefintears。

“MrsThompson。”saysTheobald,withhishandonthedoor,“composeyourself,becalm;youmustpleasetotakemywordforitthatattheDayofJudgementyoursinswillbeallwashedwhiteinthebloodoftheLamb,MrsThompson。Yea。”heexclaimsfrantically,“thoughtheybeasscarlet,yetshalltheybeaswhiteaswool。”andhemakesoffasfastashecanfromthefetidatmosphereofthecottagetothepureairoutside。Oh,howthankfulheiswhentheinterviewisover!

Hereturnshome,consciousthathehasdonehisduty,andadministeredthecomfortsofreligiontoadyingsinner。HisadmiringwifeawaitshimattheRectory,andassureshimthatneveryetwasclergymansodevotedtothewelfareofhisflock。Hebelievesher;hehasanaturaltendencytobelieveeverythingthatistoldhim,andwhoshouldknowthefactsofthecasebetterthanhiswife?Poorfellow!Hehasdonehisbest,butwhatdoesafish’sbestcometowhenthefishisoutofwater?Hehasleftmeatandwine——thathecando;hewillcallagainandwillleavemoremeatandwine;dayafterdayhetrudgesoverthesameplover-hauntedfields,andlistensattheendofhiswalktothesameagonyofforebodings,whichdayafterdayhesilences,butdoesnotremove,tillatlastamercifulweaknessrendersthesufferercarelessofherfuture,andTheobaldissatisfiedthathermindisnowpeacefullyatrestinJesus。

Hedoesnotlikethisbranchofhisprofession——indeedhehatesit——

butwillnotadmitittohimself。Thehabitofnotadmittingthingstohimselfhasbecomeaconfirmedonewithhim。Neverthelesstherehauntshimanilldefinedsensethatlifewouldbepleasanteriftherewerenosicksinners,oriftheywouldatanyratefaceaneternityoftorturewithmoreindifference。Hedoesnotfeelthatheisinhiselement。Thefarmerslookasiftheywereintheirelement。Theyarefull-bodied,healthyandcontented;butbetweenhimandthemthereisagreatgulffixed。Ahardanddrawnlookbeginstosettleaboutthecornersofhismouth,sothatevenifhewerenotinablackcoatandwhitetieachildmightknowhimforaparson。

Heknowsthatheisdoinghisduty。Everydayconvinceshimofthismorefirmly;butthenthereisnotmuchdutyforhimtodo。Heissadlyinwantofoccupation。Hehasnotasteforanyofthosefieldsportswhichwerenotconsideredunbecomingforaclergymanfortyyearsago。Hedoesnotride,norshoot,norfish,norcourse,norplaycricket。Study,todohimjustice,hehadneverreallyliked,andwhatinducementwasthereforhimtostudyatBattersby?Hereadsneitheroldbooksnornewones。Hedoesnotinteresthimselfinartorscienceorpolitics,buthesetshisbackupwithsomepromptnessifanyofthemshowanydevelopmentunfamiliartohimself。True,hewriteshisownsermons,butevenhiswifeconsidersthathisforteliesratherintheexampleofhislife(whichisonelongactofself-devotion)thaninhisutterancesfromthepulpit。Afterbreakfastheretirestohisstudy;hecutslittlebitsoutoftheBibleandgumsthemwithexquisiteneatnessbythesideofotherlittlebits;thishecallsmakingaHarmonyoftheOldandNewTestaments。Alongsidetheextractshecopiesintheveryperfectionofhand-writingextractsfromMede(theonlyman,accordingtoTheobald,whoreallyunderstoodtheBookofRevelation),Patrick,andotherolddivines。Heworkssteadilyatthisforhalfanhoureverymorningduringmanyyears,andtheresultisdoubtlessvaluable。Aftersomeyearshavegonebyhehearshischildrentheirlessons,andthedailyoft-repeatedscreamsthatissuefromthestudyduringthelessonhourstelltheirownhorriblestoryoverthehouse。Hehasalsotakentocollectingahortussiccus,andthroughtheinterestofhisfatherwasoncementionedintheSaturdayMagazineashavingbeenthefirsttofindaplant,whosenameIhaveforgotten,intheneighbourhoodofBattersby。ThisnumberoftheSaturdayMagazinehasbeenboundinredmorocco,andiskeptuponthedrawing-roomtable。Hepottersabouthisgarden;ifhehearsahencacklingherunsandtellsChristina,andstraightwaygoeshuntingfortheegg。

WhenthetwoMissAllabyscame,astheysometimesdid,tostaywithChristina,theysaidthelifeledbytheirsisterandbrother-in-lawwasanidyll。HappyindeedwasChristinainherchoice,forthatshehadhadachoicewasafictionwhichsoontookrootamongthem